Never lovers

I find myself in such a terrible anger! This little childish girls have been under my skin and seting roots in my stupid mind for months now, no matter what efforts i've been doing to change this amazingly upseting reality.

I wanna LEAVE, SCREAM, never see one of this nails craved into my naive heart, never seen those smiles that are just a enormous mask covering their fears and disbelieve in another human beeing.

Every single day I have to live with the dead possibilities of sharing and conquering the once most pure heart that my fingers had the possibility to touch.

Those possibilities that I have been constructing in my decent mind will never become a reality, I know this now. So much of me in them, so much that I have lost from all of this, how can I take it back?

I wonder if I ever will think that all of this is worth a posibility of owning one's heart